Wang Yibo
He was sleeping and was seeing the dream that he hate the most…. his whole body was shaking, he can see himself in the dream…
He can see Zhan…. and he saw how he was hurting him… degrading him…. but then he saw Zhan falls down and there was blood so much blood.
Yibo wake up, breathing heavily and shouted “Zhan.”
His whole t-shirt was covered with sweat…. his eyes were moist with tears..
He cursed, “Fuck why i keep seeing this dream again and again…..” he grabbed his hair in yanked them in anger.
He get out of the bed and removed his shirt that was damped with sweat and went to take a shower…
In the shower he put his head in the cold water and welcome the tinkling sensation that he felt……
He put his hand on the wall and close his eyes and keep on saying. “Zhan… Zhan please give me chance…. i know i don’t deserve you but please let me love you this time….”
Yibo was damn serious when he said to Zhan he will give him the world if Zhan gives him a chance…
Yibo knew his guilt will be never gone, it’s now a part of his existence but he realized that he loved Zhan so much…
He know no one believe that… some say its his guilt for his talking but in reality his guilt awoken his suppressed feelings for his wife that he try to hide them…
During time of his marriage he kind of knew he has fallen for Zhan but never did he said it aloud…. but the recent events when Zhan try to kill himself and that shock Yibo get made him realized that he lost the only good thing in his life.
Yibo open his eyes and was determined if Zhan give him one chance and he doesn’t mind if Zhan put him behind the prison he will welcome it but if Zhan give him a chance that he desperately wants…
He will make Zhan his only…. he will love him…. he will give him the respect a husband should give a wife and moreover he will protect him too and for that he has to change himself….
But how much? he thought….
His perception is changed but he know his anger still exit… he knew why but he never wanted to address that…. that teenage incident always made him angry and helpless… even thinking now made him to ruined this whole bathroom…
But he keep his breathing neutral… no…. he need to talk and he need to change and he need to learn how to control his anger… even though it’s going to darkest past of his life… which was way before Yifei death….
Yibo gets out of the washroom and open his iPad and search for top psychologist of the city.
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Xiao Zhan
Zhan feel good in a loose t-shirt and sweat pants… after getting a bath and new clothes he was feeling calm.
Zhan touched the chocolates that Fei got for him well technically it was Yibo idea as Fei said.
“Mama me want to bring dolly but daddy said you are big so you don’t play with dolly… so daddy got your chocolates.” Fei said with a pout.
Zhan hesitantly looked at Yibo… who was feeling shy and acting strangely very caring around him…
Zhan still don’t get it what really Yibo wants but thank god he kept his promise and brought Fei daily to meet him.
Zhan smiled at his daughter “you can bring the dolly next time.. we both will play.”
Zhan put his daughter in his lap and make a pony tail of Fei long hair.
Fei then said something that shocked Yibo and Zhan both.
“Mama why don’t you come now…. you not sick… me you and daddy can live together just like Alicia had a mama and daddy.”
Zhan looks away and doesn’t know how to answer his daughter innocent question… how can he explain her that her greatest daddy had ruined the perfect family idea long years ago.
Zhan change the question. “Now you haven’t told me about our little Alicia.”
And that made Fei to forget her question and she tell everything about Haikuan’s daughter.
At the end Yibo give a phone to Zhan…
Zhan took it and looked him in confusion… Yibo clear it.
“It’s my personal number…. you can call me if you need anything….i know you don’t have a phone but i arranged that for you.” he said with a firm but gentle voice.
Zhan glared him in anger. “So considerate of you of finally thinking i need a phone (he sarcastically said) then what you will do, after giving me phone you will take it whenever you want…. then no thanks i can live without phone like i used to live without it for years.”
Yibo sighs. “You taking it in a wrong manner…. Zhan( his guilty eyes were begging him) I’m trying to do something right, maybe in a little manner but I’m trying…. I feel like giving you phone will help you comfortable to reach or check Fei whenever you want and I can also feel good knowing how you are…. i saved all my contacts here.”
Zhan give the phone to him in disgust.
“Like i said no thanks… please don’t try be concern for me… cause you are little late for that.” he said in low voice.
Yibo try to control himself and nodes.
“I know I’m so late… but I will keep on waiting for you to come with me and Fei.” he walks and open the draw and put the phone inside the draw.
When they were gone as visitor timing was finished and the hospital doesn’t allow small children to stay here any longer, Zhan kissed his baby.
Zhan was thinking deeply… what should he do…. a chance Yibo wants that Zhan knows he cant never give him…. he will be fool if he did…
But the way Yibo and Fei loved each other it’s scared him the most…
Many days ago he was making plans to tell the police everything about Yibo and what he did to him…. But now he had Fei to taken into account.
Zhan sighs in frustration and sit down on a hospital sofa…..
Then Cheng came with a happy face “Hi brother how are you feeling now!”
Zhan gives him a timid smile and softly said. “Good… actually quite fresh too!”
Cheng excited raised his eyebrow. “That’s great and you know what is great more… you are getting a discharged in the morning.”
Zhan also get happy and replied “thank god i was getting frustrated here.”
But Zhan saw Cheng nervous expression too…
Then Cheng said “Actually they wanted to put you for few days as they want you to consult their hospital grieve and trauma department… they have a great psychologist… who helps people like you… but i told them that to made such arrangement in a close setting… like a home… where you can speak comfortably.”
Zhan shake his head tiredly and give his brother a painful smile.
“I cant talk to anyone cause no one will understand my feeling my emotions and my pain and i think i will not kill myself when finally i got my Fei back…”
Cheng got little angry. “But she is still not under your protection.. she is still living in Wangs house, and god knows whats happening with her…. so Zhan my next question will be that when will you give your statement to police about your domestic violence if you can’t talk about your feelings to a doctor who can really help you.”
Zhan body shiver with fear… it was a slap on his face….. Cheng is right Fei is not with him… he just come with Yibo and then went along with him… even it’s painful to accept but he knew his daughter love Yibo more than him.
Tears, his favorite companion join him and made him more helpless….
Cheng holds his hand and said to him.
“Zhan in the day you have to talk… tell your inner emotions and I’m not pushing you now….. but the police thing… I have to push you in this… if you want Fei to live with you then you have to tell everything to police like very soon….. cause Zhan believe me that Yibo bastard told me he fights for Fei savagely…. so your statement against him now will make our case strong.” Cheng try to make a point.
But to Zhan he shows him something else…. the power Wang hold, Zhan knew no one can win them, no one.
Zhan gasped and think what if Yibo really took his daughter from him for good… what if Fei starts hating him because she is taken her away from her father and put him behind the bar.
He feel the goosebumps he knew he can’t live like this… in fear of losing his child… he live a year ago and it made him fall very badly in the pain of hell.
He shakes his head and said “no.”
Cheng’s eyes were stunned like he cants believe his brother.
“No what Zhan?” he said in control voice.
Zhan tries to control his eyes. “No.. n.. no.. i.. i cant…i know what they can do… Fei loves him and she doesn’t even know me properly. She just getting to know me now but she will hate me if I send him to the jail… she will be hurt again… she was deprived of parents love… I can’t do this… I can’t send him to jail.”
Cheng stand and cursed loudly that made Zhan flinched.. he point a finger on him.
“Do you have any freaking idea what the hell are you saying… you are letting him go… you are giving him a free pass… a chance he never deserves…. he will do this again and again… I can’t let you go back to hell again.”
Zhan wiped his eyes and said “I’m not giving him anything.. I just want to take what he had right now… I want Fei to love me… and then I will tell the police… I will manipulate him like he did to me.”
But Cheng was not getting anything. “You are seriously something… we all know it’s not in you to fool someone… you are innocent like a child this cruel world will eat you alive.”
Zhan smiled and shakes his head.
“That’s where you are wrong, this cruel world made a new Xiao Zhan.. who still might be fool but very strong too… this cruel world made me survive this so many time but being a mother I wanted to give my Fei happiness, not any pain or sorrow… i wanted to protect her in my reach.. I wanted to help her when she needs me unlike my own mother.” Zhan said with a sad face.
Cheng huff in frustration. “You are playing with fire and I don’t know how to help you when you can’t help yourself…”
He was the gone while slamming the door shut in anger.
Zhan put a hand on his mouth and sobbed……..
he knew Cheng can be 99 percent right.. he is playing with fire but 1 percent is the hope to give his daughter a better life and future….
But he also said true to Cheng…. Yibo can’t play with him this time.. he will have nothing to do with him., he will take his daughter out but he needs to win his daughter trust first.
He opens the bedside drawer and take out the phone and dialed the number.
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“Hey, did you miss me…😄 The worst day of my life is when I feel like I’m tired.”😴
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