YRMD-89 This Was Their Willing Choice

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The next morning Yibo sent Zhan to the hospital and then brought Fei to the kindergarten. Therefore, he didn’t accompany Zhan to grandpa’s ward until he got off work.

Zhan saw Jingtong the moment he entered the ward and Jingtong had brought breakfast to grandpa.

“Dad, I cooked the porridge for you. Have a try.” Jingtong begged him.

Zhan grasped the insulation bucket tightly and walked towards her after a deep breath, “I can’t imagine that the noble Jingtong will get up early to cook breakfast. It’s kind of you!”

Zhan put the bucket on the table next to the bed and said, “Grandpa, this is the breakfast for you.”

Grandpa smiled and nodded before saying to Jingtong, “Thank you for your visit. Please go back. I can’t afford your kindness.”

“Dad! This is what a daughter should do.” Jingtong continued to persuade him, “Just try a bit of it.”

“Zhan, I am hungry. Where is your porridge?” Grandpa did not glance at Jingtong, but was gentle with Zhan.

“Here!” Zhan poured the porridge into a bowl and gave it to grandpa, “Be careful. It is hot.”

He took the bowl and ate with a spoon. He was so happy that his face was full of satisfaction, “Delicious!”

Zhan smiled, “Take more if you like it. Here are still some left.”

Their interaction was so warm that Jingtong was just like a stranger. She was envious and a little bit angry.

“Dad, take a rest and I will see you tomorrow.” Jingtong was helpless and chose to leave.

“Take your porridge with you.” Grandpa said in a low voice.

“This is a little token of my affection. If you don’t like it, you can dispose it as you wish.” Jingtong left, which looked lonely.

After breakfast, Zhan washed the dishes and saw him look outside and his eyes were vacant. It seemed that Grandpa was thinking of something.

“Grandpa,” Zhan called softly.

He didn’t move, but his eyes focused again, “Zhan, sit down please.”

Zhan did as told and stared at his white hair.

“Before your mom knew Jianmin, she had a boyfriend called Wei Ming, who was her classmate in college. After graduating from college, your mom and Ming came back to village and became village officials couple. Ming treated your mom well and he would rather stay in the village to take care of your grandma and me than go home. When they were ready to get married, your mom met Jianmin. In a campaign, your mom was invited to be the emcee and at that time Jianmin was so wealthy and charming that so many girls liked him. Besides, he had already had a girlfriend. However, your mom was just like an idiot hoping to marry him and followed him to the Chongqing. Then she broke up with Ming on the phone. Ming didn’t agree and he just wanted to see your mom, but your mom told him to wait until she was available.”

Grandpa paused for a while and continued to say, “Ming kept waiting for your mom. Three months later, she came back, but she had changed. She broke up with Ming face to face and told him that she had found her Mr. Right. Ming hoped that she could give it careful thought and he gave her one year to think about it.

However, your mom had made up her mind and even threw money at his face, asking him how much he needed to break up with her. Seeing Ming was badly hurt by your mom, your grandma and I disagreed. We locked her in and did not let her go. Seeing that, Ming agreed to break up.

However, we were responsible for her changes. She scolded him for destroying her and her happiness, Your mom said it was because of him that we disagreed with her. She even asked Ming to die so that she could be free. She told us that she had been pregnant and the baby should be you.

The next day, Ming’s body was found by the river… He had been taking care of us for a long time and we had regarded him as our son. When he died, your grandma and I were heartbroken.

However, your mom was unrepentant. We let her kneeled down at the grave and apologized to Ming, but she was unwilling and even said that he deserved it and his existence was a threat.

We gave her a few slaps on the ear and cut our bond. She was banished, but in fact, she had already been unwilling to stay there.

She said that after meeting Jianmin, she knew the world was so wonderful. What he gave her were happiness and satisfaction she had never experienced. She said loving money had nothing wrong, and she also loved the man.

She didn’t belong to the poor village. She should fly to a more wonderful world, where she should stay.

She also said Ming could give her nothing, neither could his love.

She not only needed love, but also respect and power.

Now she made it and she thought she was right.Your mom just left. We would rather our daughter was dead than became like this.

And Ming was so innocent. Your mom should be responsible for his death. As her parents, the sense of guilt can never be got over. Until now, I cannot forgive her… Zhan, shall I forgive her?”

“Grandpa, this was their willing choice, so please don’t torture yourself.” Zhan’s eyes were moist after hearing his words, “Forgiving her is to let yourself go.”

Though he thought Jingtong should never be forgiven, he didn’t want grandpa to blame himself for Ming’s death so that he was tortured all along.

“Zhan, we didn’t raise your mom well, so that she would make such a big mistake. She can pretend nothing has happened, but we cannot. We have never done anything wrong in our lives, but we are just responsible for Ming’s death.” He sighed with a bitter smile, “This is what I deserve.”

Zhan was thinking about how much Wei Ming loved his mom so that he could even give up his life.

If it were Zhan, he would never do so. However deeply he loved someone. If that guy didn’t love him, he was unwilling to make himself lowly.

He would just turn around and leave. Though he might be attacked by such a love every day, he had to bear it alone.

“Grandpa, if that’s the case, shall I also be responsible?” Zhan bowed his head, “If she hadn’t had the baby, things might be different.”

“You were just a cell at that time and you didn’t know anything. It was not your fault. The fault was that your mom was too cruel and eager to the upper class, so that she could do anything.” His eyes were complicated, looking painful and also tender, “The reason why I didn’t say before was that I was afraid you would think too much.”

“Now I think you have the rights to know everything about your mom, or nobody will know her past after I pass away. Of course, I don’t tell you to hate her. I just want you to know what kind of person she is. I don’t want you to suffer.”

As for Jingtong’s cattiness, Zhan had already seen it.

When Zhan, his own son was of no value to her, Jingtong scolded and drove him out.

Zhan had known anything.

“Grandpa, I understand you care about me.” Zhan gave him a big smile, “Don’t worry. I will take care of myself. I just don’t want to hear you say anything sad. I hope I can always be with you.”

“Great! I will be accompanying you. I want to see you get married and attend your wedding with Yibo.” Grandpa tapped Zhan’s hand and his eyes were bright, “I have been waiting for the day.”

“Grandpa…”

Zhan took the day off today to spend time with him. After he slept, Zhan went out for a walk, and then he saw Jin Shenhai and Darren rushing to the emergency room, who looked so anxious.

Then Jin Luying was there and she was also depressed, trying to keep herself stable and gentle.

Zhan heard someone gossiping, “I heard that the wife of the Jin Group’s president took her own life. And the president, her son and daughter ran over just now.”

“But I heard that the president loved his wife so much. How could she?”

“Was there something wrong with their marriage? Though the president has been middle-aged, he is still handsome and in good shape. Could it be some sex affairs that led her to suicide?”

“He never has any affair. It is impossible. They love each other so much.”

“Then what happened?”

Hearing that, Zhan went towards the emergency room. They were seen from a distance waiting anxiously outside the room. They were uneasy and worried.

Slap!

Shenhai gave Darren a hard slap in the face, which made the latter stumble a few steps. Luying caught him in time.

Seeing the blood at the corner of his lips, she asked, “Dad, why did you slap him?”

“He deserves!” Shenhai was so angry and put a hand on his hip, panting.

“Dad, what happened?” Luying didn’t understand, “What does he have to do with mom’s suicide?”

“Let him tell you!” Shenhai was so angry that he could not say a word.

“Darren.” Luying turned around and asked Darren who was silent.

Darren bowed his head, trying to escape from her sight. He swallowed hard, but still kept silent.

His silence made Luying dissatisfied with his attitude.

She said, “Do you have something you can’t tell me? I just want to know why mom did so? And what do you have to do with this? I want the truth and you need to be honest.”

“Sister…I have nothing to say.” He really didn’t know where to start with, because the matter was quite complicated and he was not able to make it clear in a short time.

“Is that your attitude?” Frowning, she was getting angry. However, she managed to suppress the anger and pointed to the door of the emergency room, “Darren, your mom is being salvaged!”

“As stepdaughter, I care about her so much. What about you? Are you still the Darren as before?”

He clenched his mouth and fists tightly.

Seeing that, she stopped asking, because it was useless to ask him if he didn’t want to say. She would rather wait quietly and pray for Carmen.

At this moment, Shenhai said, “Darren, you are disappointing. We don’t have a son like you!”

He had always loved his youngest son, who was the only boy of the family and survived from a serious illness, making him more valuable.

However, Shenhai was really upset by Darren this time so that he would say such things.

Darren was still silent. Luying sighed slightly and held Shenhai, “Dad, sit down and take a rest. The most important thing now is to wait until mom is out of danger. As for others, just leave it behind.”

Though she was blaming her brother, she still loved and protected him.

Standing nearby and watching them, Zhan didn’t come up to disturb them and left.

If he appeared at that time, he would be thought to laugh at them, which would set him in trouble.

He went to book a lunch and prepared the most nutritious diet for grandpa.

After taking a walk for a while, he returned and had lunch with grandpa. Finishing the lunch, he read some news to grandpa. Grandpa slept as usual.

Then, he got a call from Lixian, which was about work, he went out and answered the phone. Taking the lift to the first floor, he went towards a garden, where he saw Darren sitting on a chair by the lake in a distance.

Zhan had already finished his talk with Lixian, and then he walked towards him.

He passed behind him and sat down gently at the other end of the chair.

Not until then did Darren find someone was next to him, who had immersed himself in his own world. He was surprised when he saw Zhan.

“Grandpa is now in hospital.” Zhan explained why he would be here, “And I know Miss. Carmen is also here.”

Hearing his soft voice, Darren stared at the sparkling water of the lake.

“She called me the day before yesterday. She let me persuade you not to get tangled up with Lingjiao.” Zhan turned his head and looked at Darren, “But I refused.”

Hearing that, Darren moved his sight from the lake to him, “It is useless to persuade me.”

“So you are determined to stay with her?” Zhan asked without any emotion.

“Do you care?” Darren asked in turn, with his eyes twinkling.

Zhan said, “Darren, this is your own life and you should be responsible for yourself. Nobody can help you.”

“Not to mention the bad things she did and the harm she brought to you and your family. Don’t you care? And don’t you even care about your mom? She is your mom, who loves you most in the world. She can do anything for you and whatever she does is good for you.

If she doesn’t love you, she would not do so to let you understand. Of course, I don’t have the rights to interfere in your life, but I hope you can make it clear and won’t regret your choice now.”

“I won’t regret.” Staring at his face, Darren said word by word.

“Now that you won’t regret, I have nothing to say. I only hope you can consider your family, especially Miss Carmen, when you do anything.” Zhan seemed to be disappointed.

“I will.” He nodded and said in his mind that he didn’t want to be that like this and he had never expected such a situation.

“And I want to thank you for your help last time.” Zhan was relieved and changed the topic, “Darren, thank you for saving my life and we don’t owe each other. Please take good care of Miss Carmen and I will visit her later.”

Finishing his words, he stood up and left..

Darren saw him leave. In his eyes, there was all his back.

Zhan returned to the ward and grandpa was woken up.

“Grandpa, would you like some water?” He asked with concern.

“Yeah.” He had felt thirsty.

Zhan gave him a cup of warm water.3

He took a few sips and said, “You don’t have to stay with me. Just go to work.”

“I know. I have taken the day off today, and I will go back to work tomorrow.” Zhan could only be obedient to him because he didn’t want him to be worried about him when he was still in poor health.

“Spend more time with Yibo and Fei. They are the most important for you now.” Grandpa reminded him.

“Ok, don’t worry.” Zhan helped him make the bed.

In the afternoon, after picking up Fei, Yibo came to see him. After a few words, they three were driven out of the door by him.

Zhan held Fei and said to Yibo after leaving the ward, “Miss Carmen suicided, and I want to visit her.”

Yibo didn’t seem to be surprised and his eyes showed that he understood what Zhan meant. Carmen’s suicide might be to do with Zhan’s rejection of her request.

Zhan must be a little bit sad. After all, Carmen loved him so much. Besides, Carmen was an elder, so Zhan should show her concern.

“Ok, I’ll go with you.” Yibo made the decision.

“Ok.” Zhan smiled with corners of his mouth upward, “Let’s buy some fruit and flowers.”

They bought a bouquet of carnations and a fruit basket at the gate of the hospital and then they went to Carmen’s ward.

Out of politeness, they knocked at the door. Then the door was opened by Jin Luying. She was surprised when seeing Yibo and Zhan.

Especially Yibo, who was so handsome that Luying was fully attracted.

A simple white shirt and a dark suit made him look tall and slim. With his handsome face, he was so elegant. His eyes were pure and quiet and there was only Zhan inside. Only when looking at Zhan would his eyes become mild.

“Luying,” Zhan called to Luying in a low voice.

“Come in.” Luying came to herself, stood back and let them in.

They entered the ward. Yibo put down the basket and Zhan put the flowers in a vase by the bed.

Carmen was asleep at first, but because of the sound, she opened her eyes.

“Mom, you are awake.” Luying said softly, “Zhan and Mr. Wang are here.”

Hearing that, Carmen looked at Zhan and then shifted her gaze to Yibo. Her eyes were moist and red.

“Mom, what happened?” Luying found something strange about her and suggested that she be decent in front of the guests.

Carmen thought she was dreaming and she blinked. Making sure that it was real, she said, “Zhan? And Mr. Wang? Thank you for your visiting. How do you know I am here?”

Carmen looked at them in surprise.

Few people knew her suicide because it was dishonorable and they blocked the news.

“My grandpa is also in hospital. And I met Darren just now and he told me that.” Zhan didn’t mention he found by himself.

“Well…” When talking about Darren, Carmen was sad and couldn’t help crying.

“Aunt Carmen, take care.” Zhan handed a tissue to her.

She took the tissue and wiped away her tears. She smiled and said to Yibo, “Sorry to be unseemly. But I am really happy that you can take time off to be here.”

“You are welcome. The Jin Group is our partner and you are important to Zhan, so it is reasonable to visit you.” He said carefully.

Carmen was touched and nodded her head, “Thank you.” Then she stared at his face and watched carefully, with her eyes lingering.

Yibo didn’t feel uneasy to be stared at. He just felt strange that those attracted by him were usually young women, but now the person attracted was the elder Carmen.

Zhan and Luying found her strange. Luying said, “Mom, would you like some water?”

Not until then did Carmen find herself rude, but she couldn’t help looking at Yibo. She said, “Luying, pour each of them a glass of water please. I nearly forget it.”

Then she pointed to a sofa and said, “Sit down please.”

Zhan looked at Yibo, implying that they should stay for a while. Yibo obeyed his wish and sat on the sofa near a table, which made his legs uncomfortable.

“Aunt Carmen, I have talked to Darren when I met him.” Zhan held her hands, “I have tried my best, but because I am just his friend, I cannot interfere with his life and choices.

No matter what he is going to do in the future, you have to be mentally prepared. You can refuse to accept, but you can’t hurt yourself again.

There are so many people loving you, Hurting yourself is also hurting others who love you, so the most important thing is to make yourself happy. There is nothing more important than taking good care of yourself. And the kids can take care of themselves.”

Zhan bowed his head and looked at her wrist wrapped in white gauze. On it the color of the blood could be seen. Though it was not obvious, it still burnt his eyes.

If he hadn’t refused Carmen directly and had understood what she meant in her last words, such things could have been avoided. Though he was not responsible, but he didn’t want Carmen to be like this.

In his perception, Carmen was more like his mom, from whom he could feel maternal love.

“Zhan, I am Darren’s mom, so I should be responsible. I can’t see him keep making mistakes.” Carmen understood Zhan’s advice, “Lingjiao, this bad woman, will destroy him. I can’t bear to see him become worse. I want to do him good, though he doesn’t understand and I am willing to pay my life to bring him back to the right path.”

Carmen seemed to make up her mind that Darren was not allowed to run wild.

“Ayi…” Her persistence made Zhan upset.

“Mom, though you want to persuade him, you cannot hurt yourself.” Luying joined in the persuasion, “I will take care of him. Also, I will figure out how to kick out Lingjiao so that Darren will not be hurt.”

“He doesn’t listen to me and even doesn’t come to see me when I am like this. How can he listen to you?” Carmen was anxious when mentioning Darren.

“Ayi, don’t think too much. You need to recover first and then think of ways to help him.” Zhan rubbed her shoulders, “Ways are come up with by people. We have so many people that it will be easy to figure out an idea. Don’t worry.”

So many people….

Carmen glanced at Yibo who kept silent, sat there and drank tea. She gritted his teeth.

It seemed that Yibo was her final chance.

“Luying, I am hungry. Could you please buy me a bowl of wontons?” Then Carmen said to Yibo, “Mr. Wang, could you do me a favor?”

“Mrs. Jin what can I help you? Let Zhan stay with you.”

“To be honest, I want to talk to you, Mr. Wang.” Carmen had to tell the truth.

“Go ahead. I need to pick up Fei from grandpa.” Zhan tapped his shoulders, hoping that Yibo could take it easy.

Yibo nodded.